Retrieval!!

We got 8 eggs yesterday from retrieval!  We've been praying for the perfect number so that must be it. :)  It did hurt a lot more than I thought it would.  Eric's making me take time to recover.  He loves me. :)

Today, Thursday, we find out how many fertilized.  We'
re praying for strong eggs and expert hands for those fertilizing them.  I've been pondering Psalm 139:  ¹³ For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book
   before one of them came to be.
¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts,^[a] God!
   How vast is the sum of them!

His eyes see their unformed body.  Wow!  What cool verses.

Friday we find out how many survive and then Saturday they implant them! Yay!

Last Follistim Shot!!!

Yay!!!  Tonight should be the last follistim shot I have!!!  Danville yesterday was really encouraging.  I have 12 follicles and they all look good.  My estrodial is now up to 1,400 which is crazy because a week from this last Friday is was 21, but they said that was good.

I go again to get blood work and scan done tomorrow and then they'll tell me what day I'll have retrieval. I still have to keep going to God with my thoughts to ask him to help me control them.  My mind wants to worry and freak out and God wants to give me rest for my soul.  It is a battle!  My ovaries feel full, which is normal but makes me afraid of over stimulation.  I must keep trusting him every single moment and step of the way.  He is trustworthy!

Day 21 IVF

It's been 3 weeks and a day since the beginning of this journey, well no the journey really started 8 years ago, but the actual IVF process has been 3 weeks.  The shots total up to 10 so far.  I hate needles, but the amazing thing is that they haven't been bad.  Thanks to so many people praying!! And I've had really no side affects except for a purple bruise from one of the needles hitting a capillary (I think that's what the nurse called it).  It happened on Sunday and Eric was worried about it so I called the nurse on Monday.  After I hung up I told her the nurse said he killed me.  I thought it would be funny.  Not funny.  He's worried about me. I love him. :)  But the nurse said it can happen and it's really not a big deal.

Friday we go to the doc to get more blood drawn to see if the injections have been doing what they're suppose to and then I start the 3 injections a day.  My prayer is that God would cause the exact right amount of eggs to develop and be fertilized.  Talk about having no control.  I am smack dab in the middle of realizing really how little I do control. :)  It can be a really amazing thing when I trust God and not in myself.  It's like my soul can take a deep breath and relax.  I've been going over faith with some of the girls I discple and it's been so good for me too - to remember God's character and to learn more about God's character which enables me to realize how trustworthy he is.  He loves me, he's in control of everything, and he's good.  Wow, what a God we serve.

It was so sweet my 8 year old niece this last weekend said, "You'll be a great mom."  It really touched my heart.  We'll see what God does!