Eric and I drove to Danville, PA yesterday to get some tests done on me and for Eric to learn how to give me shots. We were gone for the weekend at our fall retreat, then went to Cornell for cross training, and got home on Monday. So when we headed out early yesterday we were pooped! On our way Eric asked me if I was nervous and I really wasn't at all. Come to find out, THAT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS COMING!
Now, I'm being a little dramatic, but really I thought it was going to be a simple swab thingy like you get for pap smears. But what I didn't realize is they were doing a test run of the procedure. It hurt, but at least it didn't hurt for long. The thing that really made it intense is when they shot water in my uterus to see if I had any polyps. I don't, which praise God for that.
The doc did scare me a little about the retrieval process. I thought I wouldn't feel any pain because of the drugs they'll give me, but she said they want to know if I have too much pain so they'll stop. So I don't know what to expect.
I keep having to switch my mind from wanting to run from all these painful things to trying to embrace them. It's hard to do!!
Oh and the other thing we did was Eric gave me a shot with saline in it so he could practice. That wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be, but there are needles that are massive that I'll have shot in me later. I start one of the shots on Sunday. I need prayer that I will accept them and that they won't cause bruising or adverse affects. Also, that we will get the exact number of fertilized eggs we need.
God keeps bringing me back to the truth that he is the giver of life and no one else. It was freaky signing some of the consent forms. It was definetly a leap of faith. As I've said before, this isn't how I ever wanted it to happen, but I know there is purpose in it.
The journey continues!
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